(De)Motivation…

I have a pile of things I want to do… canvases to paint, models to build, books to read and so on, but they haven’t been touched. 

Depression sucks the life out of you at times, sapping all of your energy, so that it takes all of your effort and energy just to make it through the day, watching the clock, and wondering when it would be okay to go to bed.

Today has been one of these days. I was up reasonably early to get to the doctors and then the gym for a planning session, but once I got home again, all I could do was curl up on the bed and go back to sleep. 

We had some people round later to do some work on the house, as we are redecorating downstairs (there’s another whole can of worms/blog post…), and all I could do was stay upstairs out of the way. Depression meant I couldn’t handle interacting with others, so I hid. 

I’ve not been hard on myself though, as mental health can make you, as I realised a day of not doing much apart from reading comics and watching cartoons was what I needed to feel better and be able to tackle the rest of the week. Self-care is really important.

Tomorrow we start putting our new front room together, adding some real character to our home, and over the weekend, most of our new furniture should be put out. We are creating a waram and cosy room where we can read, watch TV, draw, whatever. It will make a huge difference to our life and our health.

But today, we rest…

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2 thoughts on “(De)Motivation…

  1. You’re right about self-care and sometimes that means rest. The plans for your front room sound wonderful. I don’t know if this helps but someone said to me once that it can help to think of depression as a holiday. Take the time to enjoy things that bring you comfort etc rather than fighting against it. Their theory was that this way the depression lifted sooner and I found that to be true. But different things, ways of thinking, work for different people so no worries if that doesn’t feel helpful to you at all. I hope you have a lovely time tomorrow.

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